The last few weeks have felt endless. Despite being busy at work—my looming thyroid testing next month has been weighing heavily on me. Since my antithyroglobulin levels began rising in November, the last three months of “watchful waiting” have been especially difficult. It has taken all of my energy to prevent my mind from wandering to worst-case scenario situations. But I finally built up the courage to schedule the appointments for the neck ultrasound and blood work. So now I have to endure these next two weeks before learning my fate.
I’ve tried my best to keep my mind occupied with writing and my body active with kickboxing. But I’ve also felt myself craving more down time—to relax, rest, and recharge. I find myself feeling like there aren’t enough hours in the day for “me”. By the time I get home from work, eat something, peruse social media, and take a shower, it’s usually about midnight. But those late nights have caught up with me in the form of a nasty caffeine dependency (caffeine withdrawal is no joke, ya’ll) and just overall exhaustion—irrespective of how much I try to catch up on sleep over the weekend.
While I may not know what the future holds for my health, I do know that I need to slow down in the present. That might mean declining offers I would normally say yes to or skipping a workout here and there. But just like we make schedules for the things we need to get done in our lives, we also need to schedule timeouts for our lives.
How do you take time out of your busy week for yourself?
Susan Schwenzfeger says
We need to take care of ourselves. That can be different each day! Working out and being with caring people are the best times to uplift me I’ve found. Keep going you do have people that love and support you!
Vanessa Steil says
You are so right, Sue!
I feel ya on your anxiety over these upcoming tests. So sorry that you have to deal with that but good for you for slowing down. You are in my prayers Vanessa. Prayer is my way to slow down and take a moment. Sometimes I skip but I try not to beat myself up about it. Have a great week my friend!
Vanessa Steil says
Thank you so much, Kathrine! I appreciate the prayers.