Next month, I’ll be taking my first international trip since the pandemic. And to be honest, booking it felt equal parts exciting and terrifying. For the last few years, on top of navigating the pandemic, I’ve been a caregiver, which…
Saying Goodbye to a Loved One
No one can prepare you for how hard it is to say goodbye to a loved one—even if you know the end is near. For the last two years, I’ve wrestled with anticipatory grief, which is a blessing and a…
The Thing About Creating a New Routine…
One of the first things I thought about as I processed my grief and the loss of my grandmother was my routine. Visiting her in the nursing home wasn’t just my nightly routine, but the part that my day revolved…
Coping with Loss
The goal of the week for me has been just to get by. But with emotions running high, even that has been a challenge. Each morning, I think about how I need to structure my day in order to make…
How I’m *Really* Doing
The last 72+ hours have been a blur. I don’t know what day it is. My voice is raspy from talking to people nonstop. And, despite actually sleeping through the night, I feel anything but well-rested. In my head, I’m…
Life Lessons: Loss
It’s been three years. I’ve been told that it takes one full year to fully grieve for a loved one; one full year of missed birthdays, holidays, and anniversaries of their life and death. Yet three years later, Gaelle’s absence…
Remembering a Friend
Today would have been my friend Gaelle Spence’s birthday. I know she would have wanted to spend the day celebrating in the company of friends and caring for her beloved horse, Flirt. Seven months ago, Gaelle passed away suddenly. I…
